B-ball contemplations

I have decided to hang up the shirt or is it hang in the towel what ever it is I am not going to play basketball any more(hopefully this feeling will last). Today I had a game and it was very dirty, hence I was very angry. I don't enjoy being angry at the other players and I don't enjoy getting after the ref's. This evening John made a comment about the officiating his exact words were "nothing like a conflict of interest" he said this because the ref was the husband of our opposing team's coach and to say the refereeing was bad was an understatement. Anyways the ref heard him and kicked John out and shouted at him and the kids kicking them out as well. Both Anya and Nadia didn't understand and were both upset at someone yelling at them. Who kicks a 2 and 4 year old out of a gym??? On the way home I thought about how we can't protect our kids from everything and it made me sad. They were really sad and worried and that breaks my heart especially as they were just innocent bystanders. Anyway hence the retiring from the game, it is not worth the bad feelings and the injuries and unfortunately there are not nice people there as well. John is making an official complaint just because he can and he for once was in the right but that doesn't take away the bad experience. I will say this though on the way home the girls and I had a great discussion about choices and they were both telling me what happened and their feelings which I appreciate, i love that they can come to me and tell me what they feel from feeling hungry to feeling sad, to feeling confused. I pray that they will continue to do so through the years and that we can learn from each other. Anya could tell that I was frustrated and told me that I needed to apologise which I think is wise counsel.